Hello beautiful creative minds!
It is a no brainier that most of us want to be recognized for our talents, hard work and creative abilities. We all follow a certain system in which we try to copy or out do what worked for another artist in hopes of “making it” just as big as them one day. We run around senselessly trying to please our target audience, investors, promoters, producers and compete against our fellow creators just so we can….. just so we can prove it to them that we are “IT”! That they won’t regret choosing us out of the rest of the talent filled ocean that surrounds us. The thought of us being successful gives us a sense of security, not only do we stand to make money (not much when you break it down, unless you’re Celine Dion, Beyonce or Rihana), we get to do what we always wanted to do because it has been our life long dream. We wear ourselves thin just so we can gain that credibility from some “big shot” dude and industry to recognize us and put us on the map. We accept to make all these alterations with ourselves just to please these people. Saddened and frustrated we try to convince ourselves its ok by saying ” ya I’ll make some shitty art for a little while, but then, THEN I will get enough people who follow and believe in me and they will all appreciate my real stuff”.
This patterned belief has tainted our creative freedom, almost discouraging us from running away from all these believed “great opportunities” and do something on our own for once. From my observation, artists, particularly in today’s world, aim for what’s in it for the now and future. Rather than remaining true to what they have always liked and build their sound surrounding that, they choose to do whatever is hot, trending and current. As an artist myself I always see myself as growing and morphing into new things. Playing with new sounds and images all the time is a part of my growth. I am not putting down trying out new things, or exploring with new sounds that interest you. I just feel like some music nowadays begin to follow a new trend and then the same sounds explode onto all the big name artist and us smaller league artist try to copy and follow. It’s hard to actually question why you like certain things and why you don’t. Trust me I have done things and looked back and asked myself what on earth I was thinking when I did it. Finding yourself is always a challenge, it pushes you to not be afraid and to get a little uncomfortable with trying new things that may not always catch your attention at first.
I don’t want this blog to start sounding like a “fuck the industry, politics and society” type of blog, but I do want to bring light to the mess ups we do to ourselves and our art, because of the expectation a lot of people put on artists. This took me a while to see. I always found myself unhappy about the circumstance with me and my music. It was a constant power battle because I always let people make me feel like I wasn’t good enough. Yes, so many people have their opinions of how one must work in order to become successful. If you can’t follow this formula…well… your not making it in their books! I allowed myself to get so swallowed up by this, making myself believe that I am not worthy, I am not talented and I am a slacker with poor work ethic. This truly ruined me and is absolutely TOXIC for everyone. Allowing yourself to believe half the nonsense people tell you is real, can lead to stress, anxiety and depression. I swear! STOP BELIEVING ALL OF IT! I have not released any music for almost 2 years, I haven’t done a show in 6 months and from the looks of it, it seems like I have completely fallen out of the music scene. Actually it has been the complete opposite. I have been working on music, working on creating my own sound, image and identity. This takes up a lot of time because no one but myself and the amazing people around helping me will do it for me. I have learned how to manage my insecurities to become a better person and artist.
My point that I am making is nothing new, it has been a well known fact that authenticity and individualism is beautiful and unique. It is what separates ourselves from others and makes us more appreciated, less forgotten. The industry has made huge and I mean HUGE changes in the way that it functions. Artists stand to gain way more independence and can have pretty successful careers without any industry backing them up. So lets take advantage of this amazing chance and become interdependent with ourselves and our art. Stop depending on people or a system, that is the last thing you want to be doing with your talent. Who says you can’t be successful without doing things on your agenda?
Just keep believing in what you have to offer and keep pushing, there is a place out there for everyone to share. The internet is a big place!
Lots of love!